I love my boyfriend.
I went to high school with him, but we really started talking in January of 2012 when he was drunk and asked me for my number via Facebook message. Lol we slowly started talking to each other to the point that we talked everyday. He easily became my best friend. It got to the point where I felt like I needed to talk to him everyday or things would just be off. In the whole 2 years of talking, we hung out maybe twice. At the time, I literally hated it. I knew he was ditching me and didn’t know why. I wanted to hang out with him. I mean, he was my best friend. But something always got in the way. We finally hung out once and from then on it got a lot easier to make plans. We started hanging out multiple times a week. It took a couple times for us to even get close. But eventually he stopped being a little bitch and we cuddled. Then we kissed. We hung out many times after that until he finally got the balls and asked me to be with him “officially.” (Yes, Facebook official) That day would be February 20, 2014. Yes I know that was less than 2 months ago, but this guy has been my best friend for over a year. He eventually told me the reason he always ditched on hanging out was because he was so emotionally connected with me he didn’t want to screw anything up when we actually hung out. Which I actually found pretty damn cute.
This guy is just amazing. In every way possible. When he kisses me I float. I forget all my worries. I am only focused on him. When we have sex it’s more than a physical connection. It’s extremely emotional and spiritual as well. Looking back at my past relationships, I told two guys that I loved them that I dated for 2 years. I can say now, after dating Michael, that I didn’t know what love was. Sure I loved them. But no way was I in love with them. But this guy….I never want to lose him. He understands me. We get each others humor. I love all his weird quirks and bad jokes. I love the way he does the littlest things. And most importantly, I know he loves me too. I can tell. Ive never had the comfort of not being scared that someone will leave me or hurt me. I trust him with everything. For me, that is a pretty huge deal.
God I love this guy. Please don’t let me screw this one up. Let me be happy with him. He’s my favorite.